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Saturday, April 11th, 2009
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6:39 pm - my grandpa died
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| Monday, March 2nd, 2009
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8:27 pm - New car and a nice high insurance
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I just bought a new 04' honda civic with 70,000 miles on it. It's a base model which is pretty much all I could afford (7,000). I have to say though that I'm very scared that someone is going to steal my car. I'm even afraid of this happening in front of my own home. I plan on keeping the car garaged but who knows if people will sneak in there in the middle of the night and do god knows what to it.
This car comes with no theft device, I am open to any suggestions as to what kind of alarm/device works the best. Any suggestions?
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| Wednesday, September 17th, 2008
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9:52 am
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Something is missing in my life and I don't know what it is. Also, kid from my class needed to print out our project and took a dollar from me. I'm pissed :(.
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| Sunday, March 23rd, 2008
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11:28 pm - Impressed With Myself
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Today I actually finished an assignment early. I can't believe it.
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| Tuesday, February 26th, 2008
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5:57 pm - i need a summer job
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| Friday, December 28th, 2007
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2:10 am - my brain
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I can't sleep because I have a headache and I feel like my brain is about to explode.
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| Monday, November 12th, 2007
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12:42 pm
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Been thinking about you, your records are here
Your eyes are on my wall, your teeth are over there
But I'm still no one, and you're my star
What do you care?
Been thinking about you, and there's no rest
Should I still love you, still see you in bed
But I'm plain with myself
What do you care when the other men are far, far better?
All the things you got,
All the things you need
I bought you cigarettes,
And pried the company to come and see you, honey
I've been thinking about you, so how can you sleep?
Those people aren't your friends, they're paid to kiss your feet
They don't know what I know.
Why should you care when I'm not there?
Been thinking about you, and there's no rest
Should I still love you, still see you in bed
But I'm plain with myself
What do you care when I'm not there?
All the things you got
That you'll never need
All the things you got
I bled and I bleed to please you
Been thinking about you...
Radiohead, how could I have forgotten about you?
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| Friday, November 2nd, 2007
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11:33 am - Bing stuff
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I think that the events of 2 weeks ago proved that I've been having some adjustment issues with Bing. However, things have gotten better. I'm no longer a nursing major and am doing Physchology, and will be able to graduate in a year and a half. That is, as long as I keep my grades up. I'm also taking Anat and Phys pass/fail, which means so long as I get a D i get credit and my GPA won't suffer too much.
I'm happy about it. Granted I know it will be hard- Binghamton, afterall, is known as a "public ivy". School is also not cheap and I'm making a huge investment in coming here and trying my hardest. I'll see how it pans out.
Yesterday my roomate Kate moved all of the furniture in our room so that she can't be seen behind her desk. I thought this was a little weird. Then over dinner I got it out of her that she didn't want to room with me for our last year of college. I was shocked.
I asked why she doesn't want to live with me. I figured it would be great since we'd both be the same major and I thought we got along well enough. I also thought if there were things that urked her maybe i can change them. But no, she said it was nothing that I could change, and that the reason she doesn't want to live with me is because it's not what I do but who I am. Apparently I'm too judgemental and dramatic for her. She also doesn't like hearing me talk to our about my boyfriend, who is significantly older than me and she doesn't approve of it. I feel like I've been slapped in the face.
This morning I suggested that she may want to think about moving next semester if she hates living with me so much. I hope she considers it.
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| Monday, October 22nd, 2007
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5:36 pm - hating Binghamton
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I am really not liking it here at BU. I hate dorm life. I hate not having a carpet and living with two other girls. They insist upon keeping the windows cracked open at night and I find myself freezing very often.
I had this lab practical in Anatomy and Physiology that I failed. I mean, we didn't get the grades back yet, but I know I failed it. We had to look at a brain and tell what nerve was showing, I said trochlear iv, then crossed it out and but abducens vi. It was trochlear iv. I looked at a patella bone and a clavicle and had no idea what they were, didn't look at them in lab.
All of the molarity questions I got wrong. I got the hip joint wrong and put tibiofemoral joint instead, didn't list what kind of joint it is (the hip bone is ball in socket), and just thinking back I fucked up so badly. I don't even know what my grade is yet because my teacher hasn't posted the grades. But all I know is the class came out saying how easy it was, and all I could think about was how badly I must have failed.
The following day I had a nervous breakdown. I couldn't stop crying for anything. This proceeded for 4 days. I felt like a complete nutjob. I couldn't eat anything because I kept dry heaving. All I could think was how horribly I'm doing in this class and even if I might be passing, what kind of a nurse am I going to make if I can only retain 65% of the information?
This weekend was parents weekend and as soon as they came I cried. I even spent the night with them at Econo Lodge and slept on on the extra double bed. When they left yesterday I started crying like crazy again. I don't want to be here.
I would really like to withdraw now but I'm afraid it will affect my future financial aid. I also don't know what I'm going to do after this. Do I finish my BS degree at FIT? Will they even accept me if I withdraw from here? I'm 22 fucking years old, going to be 23 in july and still don't have a Bachelor's degree. What the fuck is wrong with me?
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| Wednesday, October 17th, 2007
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9:57 pm - My Brother
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So I called my family today to find out about how my 16 year old brother Michael is doing. Apparently he's absenced out of school again.
All Michael does is sit in his room and play on the computer all day, or his guitar. He has no friends, doesn't do drugs. He's pale, thin and sickly looking. He has a lot of bowel problems too, apparently.
I am so upset with his situation. He has a horrible relationship with my dad who's depressed, $40k in debt, drinks like a fish and is terribly miserable with the lack of control he has with his life.
I wish my parents were better. I feel like they're so much to blame for Michael being the way that he is. Why didn't they rear him properly? What is he going to do with himself? I could cry just thinking about it.
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| Monday, October 8th, 2007
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10:24 pm - Cellphone minutes
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This month I used
Peak Minutes: 244
Off Peak Minutes: 436
Weekend Minutes: 0
IN Calling Peak: 652
IN Calling Off Peak: 1,312
Grand Total: 2,644 minutes
How do i do it?
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| Friday, September 21st, 2007
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7:54 pm
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| Saturday, September 15th, 2007
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3:29 pm - Sick at Bing
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Here at Bing with a baaaad cold. My head hurts, my eyes hurt and there is yellow coming from my head. Augh I want to sleep!
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| Saturday, August 4th, 2007
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1:29 pm - Scary G-mail stuff
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So two days ago I try and log into gmail and it says my password is invalid. I'm scared and confused. I report this to gmail and they get back to me that day and today I used the instructions to reset my password. I do so, log into my account and look around.
Nothing strange in my sent box or trash. It appears that none of my e-mails were looked at. I log out.
Then, which I try and log in again later, MY PASSWORD DOESN'T WORK! What is going on? I had to send another report to gmail.
I'm so upset and confused.
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| Sunday, July 29th, 2007
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7:41 pm - Bitterness at the loss of my clothes, and other things
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I'm bitter today, I'm sorry to say. I'm just reflecting on the 6 months I spent with my and and I keep remembering all of the mysterious things that just "disappeared" on me.
For those of you who aren't aware, let me give you the lowdown. Long story short, I spent 6 months at my aunt's in New Hyde Park before moving back home with my parents. The day of my move, I come into my cousin's room (where I had been staying since she was away at college) and I see all of my things that I had neatly put in a storage bin in the basement a month prior in tiny white grocery bags! She dumped all my stuff out of the bin thinking it was *hers* when it was actually mine. I was incredibly ticked off, but not as ticked as when I realized that a good deal of my seasonal clothes were missing. Such as:
+ my only worn twice black $40 ralph lauren turtleneck
+ my gucci knockoff skirt which I loved to death
+ my $50 arden b green chiffon tank top
+ my white terry gap skirt i bought last season
+ 2 bras from the gap
+ my $75 makeup mirror my mother bought me
+ my $50 kenneth cole kitten heel sandals
+ my teal polo shirt from aeropostale
What the fuck happened to this shit? I'm not one to throw away anything accidentally, so is it possible my aunt took one of these bags and threw it away, thinking it was garbage? Whatever happened, I know this stuff was at their house and now it's gone gone gone and not one of my three cousins nor my aunt knows where any of it is.
I'm so mad. I also hate my aunt because whenever i see her, she doesn't even treat me like family: she completely ignores me! AND, to this day she seems bitter about the fact that I lived with her without paying rent, in which case she should have discussed that with me before I moved in if it was going to be such a huge frickin issue.
I just want my clothes back :(
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| Wednesday, July 18th, 2007
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11:12 am - Money- I hate it
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Some people assume that I'm in love with money because I don't spend a lot of it, because I'm afraid to spend a dollar on things that I don't really need. Well I just got my dental bill for a cleaning and new crown put in- it's $1050. I don't have dental insurance and will be paying this out of pocket. And to all of the assholes who say to me that I'm too tight with money, let me them that a penny saved is really a penny earned and I don't see them dishing out to pay my dental bill, so they don't fucking know anything.
Also, FTI, in actuality I hate money. Money has torn my family apart. Money causes wars, misery and sometimes even a false sense of security. But I need it to fix my fucking mouth and it sucks.
"Take me out tonight
Where theres music and theres people
And theyre young and alive
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I havent got one
Anymore
Take me out tonight
Because I want to see people and i
Want to see life
Driving in your car
Oh, please dont drop me home
Because its not my home, its their
Home, and Im welcome no more
And if a double-decker bus
Crashes into us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten-ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine
Take me out tonight
Take me anywhere, I dont care
I dont care, I dont care
And in the darkened underpass
I thought oh god, my chance has come at last
(but then a strange fear gripped me and i
Just couldnt ask)
Take me out tonight
Oh, take me anywhere, I dont care
I dont care, I dont care
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I havent got one, da ...
Oh, I havent got one
And if a double-decker bus
Crashes into us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten-ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine
Oh, there is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out"
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| Tuesday, June 5th, 2007
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11:01 am - North Babylon- no longer safe?
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I'm beginning to think that western Suffolk isn't as safe of a place as it used to be.
Laura's car was stolen yesterday at 7:30pm from the Walgreen's parking lot on DPA. This is next to my CHURCH and 2 minutes away from my house. THEN Laura's friend Jessica who lives in Deer Park had her car broken into.
THIS article also alarmed me:
http://www.1010wins.com/pages/532118.php?contentType=4&contentId=566936
as well as this article, about a murder that happened around the block from J.G.:
http://www.nytimes.com/2007/05/29/nyregion/29hostage.html?ref=nyregion
and then there was the incident ON his block:
http://www.co.suffolk.ny.us/police/pressrelease/prview.aspx?prid=343&year=2006&id=ter
Oh and remember the controversial video that surfaced on the internet and was all over the news of two teenage girls beating up another girl? That was right in front of Woods Road Elementary school, which also happened to be mine.
Should we feel safe anymore parking our car in the parking lot? Going to the mall? Puting our children in school? I love North Babylon- it's where I spent my entire life from childhood on. But there is so much evil in some of the town's citizens and those in surrounding neighborhoods that I'm hoping that my family picks up and moves to Nassau county or out of state.
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| Monday, June 4th, 2007
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12:20 pm - Such a great place
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There is so much to look forward to! Things are really looking up and I'm excited about that.
+ Summer is finally here. Which means I can get some color and drive to the beach.
+ Binghamton orientation is June 29. How I'm getting there is still tbd.
+ Sonia is home from school
+ my gym training for the past month is showing results
+ I'm getting a new furniture piece for my room off of craigslist for only $30
+ I love my 2nd job
+ I'm going to Miami from the 10th of July through the 15th.
I'm finally in such an great place mentally that I feel it's truely having an effect on everything in my life. I want to be more giving with people. I'm motivated, feel a closer connection with myself than I have in a while, and am looking forward to the things that lie ahead. This is going to be a great summer.
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| Monday, May 28th, 2007
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11:31 pm - Best weekend in a while
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I had a fantastic weekend.
Saturday my family got into a little heated arguement that I care not to get into via livejournal. After things settled I made myself a cup of coffee and called Crystal who I hadn't seen in over a year. Her family was having a bbq and invited me over.
I took my dad's car to her house and used my new driver's license for the very first time. It felt liberating. One of the best feelings of my life, handsdown. I got to see Crystal's new short do. Her dad made me a mouthwatering burger which I was incredibly grateful for. Good coffee too. It's amazing that her family treats me better than my own a lot of the time. No, MOST of the time. They're golden.
Anyway, it was awesome seeing Crys. She's one of those people that you can never get mad at because she just happens to be one of the nicest people you could ever meet. I'm so thankful to have had her as a friend for the past 6 or so years. She's one of the few who I'm happy to say actually stuck by me.
Sunday Sonia surprised me with a visit and we went to the beach from 2-6. For those of you who didn't follow suit, you don't know what you were missing. The weather was perfect, not a cloud in the sky and minimal wind. Afterward we went back to her place and stayed up watching the Office till 2AM.
Today Sonia, her friend Stepanie and I met her friend Rommel in NYC. He has an aparetment near Water St. in the financial district with a sick view of the city which included the Brooklyn Bridge and the empire state building. Pictures on facebook will follow this entry.
We explored the Southstreet Seaport. Witnessed a group of little kids chuck their garbage off the pier as workers just looked on unphased. WTG children, our future. We walked A LOT. Visited city hall, Yellow Rat Bastard, and then headed home. Ate dinner at the very unreasonable hour of 10:30 and now I'm here, enjoying the new Bose speakers I bought for myself at Best Buy... I'm so in love.
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| Monday, May 14th, 2007
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12:16 pm - Best day of my life
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